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Most of the time, I don't feel like writing in complete thoughts. Blogging is tough for me in that way. Sometimes I'm just too lazy to organize my thoughts and being on a computer doesn't help the process. I always have so much useless information running around in my head. I try to start out anything that I write on paper, so I can get my scatterbrainedness out and things in order. With blogging, I tend to just go for it, so things are either super choppy or really long and annoying--- until I've written a whole paragraph about the fact that I'm crazy.

ANYWAYS.
I passed my guarding class today. Thank the good Lord. This weekend has been a real test to my faith. From the YOKE lock-in Friday night and lifeguarding saturday and sunday, I wasn't sure I could do it. I felt like I could physically feel the weight of stress these past few days, but I saw God do some seriously obvious prayer answering. Why do I worry? I don't know. It's what we do as humans but females especially or something like that. I try to rely on myself, and it just doesn't work. Is it a lack of faith? Why yes, it absolutely is. I'm working on it. I'm working on a lot of things. But He's changing my heart all the time, and I am certain He will finish the good work He started in me. I must remember that He has prepared in advance the things that I am supposed to do.

Sometimes my heart gets a good dose of calmness.

I must register for classes tomorrow.
I must go to bed.
So much to do this week.
Trusting.
Trusting.
Trusting.
Trusting that I will manage everything alright.
I'm ready for summer, and it feels good to say that.